I have a big tribe.
In order for you to understand who I talk about in my posts it might help to know some of the people in my life.
Adam is my new significant other. I hate calling him my boyfriend. I’m not 15. It also makes my boys uncomfortable. He was their friend first and now he dates their mom. It’s a little weird. Adam is amazing. I’m not sure he understands how awesome he really is. When I try to tell him he humbly replies, “nah, just Adam.
Jerry is my late husband and the father to all of my boys. He had the disease CTE (like the NFL players) and we are committed as a family to raise awareness for the disease and suicide in general.
Stetzon is my oldest son, Lex is my middle son and T is my youngest son.
All of my boys live with me. The older ones are searching for ways to escape. Both would like to live in Texas but we will see where they end up. I’m happy they live at home with me right now. It’s eased the loneliness and fear of not knowing if I could do this single life thing. T is my reason for getting up everyday and being the best me I can be. He deserves an excellent mom and I’m doing my best to be her.
Adam has 2 sons, Tate and T squared. I’m keeping the minors in my life secretive. The adults can handle scrutiny but the two youngest don’t need it. T squared is a high functioning special needs kid and he brings so much laughter and joy to my life. Tate works with me in the call center. It has helped me understand them both a little better interacting with Tate everyday.
I am surrounded by testosterone. I need some daughter in laws to help balance things out. So far, no one has stepped up.
Adam has 2 brothers so his mom must feel the way I do although she has two grand daughters to help her out. Adam’s parents are just as awesome as he is. HIs entire family has welcomed mine with open arms. I am blessed.
My parents and my brother help me with T whenever there is a school holiday, summer vacation or momma just needs a break. I really don’t know what I would do without them. They have been there for me from the moment my life turned upside down. They have truly shown me what unconditional love is.
My best friend Stephanie provides me with good advice and we have the best time together. She is the friend you don’t see for months and it’s just like no time has passed by when we get back together. She is my rock in so many ways. T loves her like an aunt and begs to do craft night with her family all the time.
My huge group of friends. Y’all know who you are!
My amazing co workers from my old job will forever hold a dear place in my heart. It is the first time in my adult life that I’m maintaining connections with people. They were there in my darkest hour and helped me embrace this new life. I’m happy to tell them I’m not spelunking in a cave anymore! Good grief I miss you guys!
The Widow and Widowers group on Facebook are total strangers who feel like family. But they count in my tribe too. Some of them I keep better track of than others but I love and appreciate all of them.
Lastly, God is a big part of my tribe. You can call him whatever you want but I’ll refer to him as God. He had a much bigger plan for my life than I did. I wouldn’t have made it this far without him. He brought the right people into my life at the right time, no doubt about it. Every bad thing that happened to me prepared me for this time in my life. Angels and miracles exist if you open your heart and mind to see them.
This is my tribe. I’m proud to call them mine.