On July 4th I made the best decision and married my best friend. It was not something I did lightly. It was a long time in happening. In fact one could say it is a miracle. If you've been a follower from the beginning you know that my marriage to Jerry was difficult. So much … Continue reading Married
This post was written on 2/13/2021 and sat in my drafts waiting to be published. Enjoy! It's the day before Valentine's Day and I've been reading the posts in Facebook from happy couples and then the sad posts from my widow warriors. The contrast between them is interesting. I'm not a resentful widow. Its hard … Continue reading Chapter 2
Wow is the word that started this epic transformation 10 years ago. I sat on an ER bed with a sonogram in my hand staring at my newly revealed 20 week gestation son. Wow was the only thing that could be said for 30 minutes as I processed the fact that my empty nest just … Continue reading Wow
Everyone has a persona they put out in the world. Some use their identity to define who they are as a person. I was guilty of using my career as my identity. It was where I obtained the self esteem to take care of my family. My identity has evolved over the past 10 years, … Continue reading Identity
Moving certainly impacted my friends list. The cool thing about living in this era is technology. While I don't get to see my Utah friends often, I do get to keep up with them virtually. Facebook, Instagram, Messenger, Marco Polo and Duo have made it easy to send messages back and forth. These messages have … Continue reading Friends
This week I had a moment with a friend that made me stop and realize how far I've come since April 2016. My friend was venting about how much she works and how when she goes home it's to a messy house and demanding people. She arrived home at 8:30PM after working a 12 hour … Continue reading Glimpse
Faith is believing in something you can't see. Faith is how I made it though every bad situation, stressful event, unpleasant moment in my life. My son is learning about God. He's learning that life is hard and through faith people overcome the difficult spots. It has been interesting to watch an 8 year old … Continue reading Faith
As I prepared for this Thanksgiving by cleaning my house and buying a freezer for half a beef coming soon. I was struck by the contrast a couple of years make. The first Thanksgiving without Jerry was just plain weird. Jerry loved food. He told me that his one requirement for a wife was that … Continue reading Gratitude
Within a few days of my husband dying I heard the Tracy Lawerence song, "Time Marches On". The lyrics always stuck with Jerry as his dad was buried beneath a maple tree. I was struck by how people just kept living their lives like nothing major had happened to my family. Fast forward three and … Continue reading Time
When you lose someone to death, there are lots of little things that can bring that grief back raw and messy. Some things are so simple you feel foolish for losing it over them. While others can take a while to surface. For me, I cope fairly well. My triggers are around how my children … Continue reading Triggers
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